I Don’t Like Being Awake

Just in case if there’s someone who doesn’t know, what I mean about being “awake” has to do with being consciously aware of a lot of the things going on in our society and throughout the world. Not literally awake, like waking up from a good night’s sleep.

And I must admit that I kind of hate being awake. Knowing the things that I know is a blessing and a curse. I’ve come to being awake to a lot of things just within the past year simply by thinking and having shocking revelations that are just irrefutable. My thoughts connected me to things that were right in front of me the whole time. A lot of the things I’ve come to realize is even more important for the masses of black people than anyone else because it effects us more.

It’s a blessing because if I can show and teach people the truth, it will change our society for the better forever. But I hate being awake and it’s a curse because I know the information I have come to realize, which I will be sharing some of it throughout this blog at later times (because it’s too much to talk about in just one post), needs to be seriously heeded by the masses of our society. But I know much of my messages will just fall on deaf ears. Many people will just get offended and argue about the truth that’s right in front of them instead of thinking and reading about it themselves.

The people who are part of the conscious community might not like me saying this, but sometimes, I miss living in what I like to call “Oblivion”, the place in your mind where you are oblivious to everything around you. I miss being “asleep”. Because now that I’m awake, I can’t enjoy the things I used to enjoy anymore. I can’t enjoy the radio. The Internet. Television. Shopping. The foods that I eat. Certain people. Anything. Because I can see right through the B.S. of it all and it makes me sad and angry. The things I have come to know and see about our society is quite disturbing. I just don’t know what to do with myself now. And I know that in order for all this stuff to change, the masses of our society has to wake up, too. Changing this society won’t work with just a few people awake. But sadly, most of them won’t.

And they won’t because I know that once they do, they will realize that they have to give up and change everything they love. They will realize how long they’ve wasted their lives believing lies made up by the people who run our society and living in “Oblivion”. They will also realize exactly how much work that needs to be done to change it and if enough people aren’t awake, just thinking about doing the necessary things that needs to be done to change things will feel like too much.

Once they wake up, many of them will feel like me. Missing “Oblivion”. Missing enjoying the things they used to love, but can’t because they will see a lot of those things are lies and only used to keep us dumbed down. Once you wake up, you can never go back to sleep. Once you wake up, you can never go back to “Oblivion”. Nothing will ever look or feel the same again.

The worst thing about being “awake” is knowing the truth, telling the truth, but everyone else just denies or ignores it. Trying to wake people up is exhausting and discouraging when you’re talking to a bunch of people that just don’t want to.

It’s really sad being awake and seeing exactly how many people are still asleep and no matter what you do or say, you just can’t wake them up. Sometimes, I feel like a person who’s trying to save a bunch of people from a burning house, but the people are just sitting there like they don’t notice the fire.

I’m starting to think I’m not the only one who feels like this when it comes to being awake. I think this is where the phrase “Ignorance is bliss” comes from. When you’re ignorant, everything around you seems fine and okay and you’re happy. But once you learn and see the truth in things for what they are, that fake happy world immediately disappears.

Although it can be discouraging at times, I’m going to try my hardest to never give in to ignorance. I’m going to do whatever I can to make the changes I need to make to adjust to being awake and I’m going to do whatever I can to share as much information as possible to wake up anyone who wants and needs to be.

Author: mysparkingthoughts

I am a young woman with a whole lot to say. I see myself as some type of messenger.

11 thoughts on “I Don’t Like Being Awake”

  1. I know the feeling. There are days I get really frustrated. I can see the subliminal messages in television and films. It really messes with you when you can “see” all things around you. Kind like Neo in the Matrix. Sometimes I envy the people that are blind and ignorant. The have no idea what’s going on. I wonder if ignorance really is bliss.

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      1. I know it can be really draining. Luckily I have family and friends who are awake. It allows me to vent when I get frustrated. It’s important to have people that can relate to the struggle you’re going through. It helps me keep my sanity.

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      2. Sorry to hear that. You really need someone that can relate to you. I think that’s why so many gravitate to WordPress and YouTube. Mainly because they are able to find like minded people when they can’t find them in real life. I’ve gone to black events and African festivals in the past. I was able to meet people that felt the same way I do. It’s a real relief. That way you don’t feel so alone. And you realize that there are many people going through the same stress. Consciousness and knowledge of self is a long journey. It can be tiring but I think we are all better for it. Ignorance is NOT bliss.lol

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